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THE ANNOYING ONE
CHRISTY
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MY SHOP!
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QUOTES
" REALITY IS MERELY AN ILLUSION, ALBEIT A VERY PERSISTENT ONE" - ALBERT EINSTEIN
" WHATEVER YOU BELIEVE WITH FEELING BECOMES YOUR REALITY" - BRIAN TRACY
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Date: Monday, July 04, 2011 Time: 3:06 PM
IT'S LIKE I HAVE THIS WHOLE ELABORATE SCHEME IN MY HEAD AND JUST WONDERING WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF I ACTUALLY CARRIED IT OUT. AS UNLIKE ME AS THIS MAY SEEM.... EVEN AS THE CONSEQUENCES OUTWEIGH THE NON EXISTENT BENEFITS. I JUST CANT GET AROUND ALL YOUR LIES AND DECEPTIONS... I WONT WISH YOU WELL BECAUSE I KNOW YOU DONT EXPECT ME TOO, AND I CANT, BECAUSE I DONT. I DONT SEE RATIONALLY HOW GIVING UP ALL OF THIS HAS MADE YOUR LIFE BETTER. YOU ARE NOT FIT TO BE A PARENT. IMMA SAY IT OUT FRONT. NO FIT PARENT WOULD KNOWINGLY AND WILLINGLY HEAP MOUNDS UPON MOUNDS OF MISERY IN THEIR KIDS. STICKING A KNIFE INTO A WOUND THAT HAS BARELY HEALED (AND SADISTICALLY DOING SO AS WELL, MIGHT I ADD) YOU SAID THAT YOU DIDNT FEEL THAT I LOVED YOU. YOU NEVER SAW ME SING YOU NEVER SAW ME BAKE YOU NEVER SAW ME BREAK DOWN YOU NEVER. AND YOU SAY I NEVER LOVED YOU. MAYBE I'M TOO CAUGHT UP IN WHAT OTHERS MAY THINK OF MY WOULD BE ACTIONS, AND HOW THEY JUDGE ME THEREAFTER. I'LL BE THAT COUSIN YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN IN AGES. OR PERHAPS I'D BE REPLACED. THE DRAMA QUEEN, THE RECKLESS ONE, THE ONE WHO HAS LOST IT. MAYBE I HAVE. YES I HAVE HAD A HAPPY CHILDHOOD. BUT WHAT'S LEFT OF IT REMAINS FOREVER TARNISHED BY THE QUESTION MARK THAT SAYS " WAS THIS ALL A LIE" A DAUGHTER OF A LIAR IS THAT WHAT I'D BE LABELLED AS? OKAY SO I KNOW THAT NOT ALL PEOPLE ARE LIKE THAT, DONT GET ME WRONG. ITS JUST THAT I'VE NOTICED PLENTY OF CONTRADICTIONS. ITS NOT LIKE YOU ARE GETTING HITCHED TO SOME PYT. (THAT WOULD JUST MAKE YOU A CHEE-KO-PEK, BUT FAIR ENOUGH, MORE FORGIVABLE SINCE YOU ARE MERELY HER SUGAR DADDY) WHY IN THE HECK? HER? AND YOU TELL ME THIS NOW? ONE WEEK. RIGHT BEFORE MY BIO PAPER (HA!) IF I HAD FREE REIGN, AND IF THIS WERE AMERICA (OR ANY LIBERAL COUNTRY UNBOUNDED BY ASIAN VALUES), I'D GIVE BOTH YOU AND HER ONE GOOD SLAP. EACH. I KNOW MORE THAN YOU THINK. WALLFLOWERS ARE OBSERVERS. OKAY SO THATS A PRETTY LONG POST. MARE, SA, RAH AND JIAMIN I'LL FILL YOU GUYS IN AFTER MYES BECAUSE STUDIES ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN THIS AND I REALLY REALLY COULD DO WITH A HUG NOW =) |